I won't be writing about shit in my journal here again. It's come back to me that it's thought I wrote about my Grandad here on purpose to upset my sister and let her find out that way.

Well that is definitely not the case. Why on earth would I do such a thing? I had no idea she came here for a start, I didn't even know she knew the address and why on earth would she take an interest? and I used this place to vent my feelings as I had noone to talk to about my Grandad. I didn't want my boys seeing me upset so voiced them here. As I do but that has been taken away from me now. I feel like I'm being spyed on now and that everything I do is being watched, judged and scrutinized. I'm sitting here wondering wtf next.

I'll start using my live journal again.

If you want that info contact me. If not I'll see ya aroud.